Keeping up momentum

Today I followed an urge with in me to finish something, in the image above theses are some of the designs we have been putting together on our Red Bubble store.

This is the image I have finished, to some this is just simple "changing of image", for me I had my earphones in and was listening to some YouTube video,

; https://youtu.be/O9nyWg7obj4

Whilst I was changing the colours and cleaning up the lines, my mind was listening to the talking whilst getting lost in the music, for me this is my theropy, it helps my overthinking mind to calm down and flow in one single though. For me it has been a daily struggle to get my heart and brain to work in harmony, and most days it seems to me they are like little children in the play ground, trying their hardest to be as far away from each other as physically possible, that is silly to think about, and yet through trying to deal with it, I was still trying to be the best me I was choosing to be, most of the time I was more confused over who others thought I was to them.

For me, my theropy gets me away from the doubts, the self ridicule and dark spiralling all seem to wash away in those deeper thoughts, and the spiralling then gets deeper, the music or the words aren't the theropy, they just help in their movement, for me to find, balance! As a youngster I was first introduced to a concept of spiritual balance through watching Bruce Lee movies, I wanted to be like him, but not the actor, the person behind the actor. In my day the Internet was a library, it took time to read through books to find out what or how, we are surrounded with knowledge in today's way of life, most of it.... Well, less said the better! Through an old book of mystic beliefs from the east, I've led a busy life in-between reading it and now, so not sure on the title, it was explaining how if not all most martial arts were based on spiritual practices, beliefs that were still held strong throughout their cultural way of life. I found it amazing how on this planet people believed in a form, a flow that flows through everything and that everything came from nothing? In a way my spiritual journey was starting, and I was just thinking I had found something so cool in a book! There was nothing like this book in the school library, again I wasn't aware of how important but very subtle details would all come together for me, in some cases, with very dramatic outcomes.

I started with learning an old concept of having my mind body and soul all working as one? A young 9 year old boy's concept of becoming all one was not how my imagination sees it now, 9 years old me saw this as being a very messy prosses and was happy with not trying to become part of all of it!?, the lessons had sneaked up and started to be present, 9 year old me knew nothing other than we all chose to see life differently, I was not aware of things, no ware near waking up from the illusion, I was just being a 9 year old version of me.

I looked for years, read hundreds of pages of other people's knowledge, thousands of hours spent pulling myself apart, I had a catapulting moment that rocked me to almost nothingness, I found something so beautiful.

I was walking through life with nothing other than love in my heart and all I was seeing was hurt and pain, pain of others became overwhelming, their hurts ran through my life, for a 9 year old, I think I dived way to deep into trying to know so much, and forgot to live in what I knew. Through the years from then to now I used music as a therapeutic method, as in a way a meditation uses music to help, I was using it in the same way, to escape the hectic hustle and bustle of thoughts flooding my brain with sparking neurons, making the the spark that starts those spirals in all their glory, I used to hold all of it in because I didn't feel like anybody would understand me, in this time we are all in now, I see how so many others are feeling the same, I see the looks on people's face's and I recognise that look, I've had that look before, whe I was feeling so distant I looked just how they are looking out to the world.

Since 2015, I have been guided, shown, experienced, lived, loved, lost, gained and so many more experiences, so has everyone else! In 2023 I'm still being guided, shown, experiencing, living, loving, loosing and gaining like everyone else, just like the flow of it all, and just like the flow of our minds.

https://youtu.be/Y5dkkmqQr7E

Just one of many versions that are out there, I stumbled on this video a couple of years ago, I found it a nice way of listening in a nice warm salt bath with candles and incense burning, plain pampering and relaxing, we choose our own ways of relaxing in our lives, this way helped me. 🙏💜💫