Transformation 🙏

Writing this blog after a painful night of non sleep. After having an injury in 2016 I have struggled with sleep since. Some days worse than other's. It's generally the left side of my body that I have nerve damage to.

The stinging in the nerve is consistent lately🤔. I do less than I ever did before🤔. It is confusing to know in my brain there is no pain. My body tells me one thing and my mind tells me another.

I know that the brain doesn't actually feel pain and it is, improved by the natural remedies I now take. Yet the nerve still drags me into the body.

Trying sleeping on an earthing mat helps massively with nerve pain. Just last night a multitude of body shouting in the brain stopped me from being able to sleep. I don't remember my dreams anymore more either, probably due to medication over the year's.

This coupled with a random shoulder issue has resulted in feeling almost detached from the left side of my body, like it's just not mine.

I know that probably sound's a bit confusing to some, but it's the only way I can explain it. I feel like the left side of my body is not mine, it's not cooperating lately.

I am not the body or the mind but the light being behind the psychological projection of self. Within that description is an innerstanding of self to an extent. I think we all find something new about self when we consider the quality of that psychological projection. That's one consideration I have. If I am projecting the confusion within outwardly and therefore confusing other's around me.

I am writing this to remind myself that I can discipline my mind to not see the separation in the body, to not focus on it. I can do this, it's the soothing of the pain I need to do. If I can improve nerve function on my left side I will not feel dragged into the pain. I have listened to much information about our intelligent cells and recently discovered information about butterflies having a cell called the 'imaginall cell'. This cell controls the transformation from caterpillar to butterfly. How amazing is this https://www.imaginal-labs.com/about

So if I have control of the projection of self it is time to transform. Not to a butterfly, but with the strength of its imaginall cell. I have always been told I am strong I guess the doubt I have periodically felt about strength is the sting in being dragged into the body.

A hot bath with bath salts from a beautiful little lady I know💜 that are soothing and ease thing's off. Some self care and love and time in meditation. All will return to balance and innerstanding of strength from the divine light being within 🙏🕉️💜